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Guys,

Did i told you about a scene that i always replay for many times on Spiderman 1?

Its the scene when Peter and MJ met at the hospital to see aunt Mary. They were brought into romantic situation…silent for while…and then they talked to each other………

MJ told that maybe she doesn’t love Harry. MJ said that she loves her hero…SPIDERMAN.

Peter shocked for moments and then (The SPIDERMAN) said that he met Spiderman, and Spiderman also talked about MJ. He said that Spiderman asked him things about MJ.

Mary Jane : And what did you say?
Peter Parker : The great thing about MJ is… when you look in her eyes and she’s looking back in yours… everything… feels… not quite normal. Because you feel stronger and weaker at the same time. You feel excited and at the same time, terrified. The truth is… you don’t know what you feel except you know what kind of man you want to be. It’s as if you’ve reached the unreachable and you weren’t ready for it.
Mary Jane : You said that?
Peter Parker : Well, something like that.

MJ then hold Peter’s hand ..

“Whatever comes our way, whatever battle we have raging inside us, we always have a choice, My friend Harry taught me that. He chose to be that best of himself. It’s the choices that make us who we are, and we can always choose to do what’s right..”

That’s the epilogue from SPIDERMAN 3 Movie.

Ya, Spidey has choosen everything in his life. He has choosen to be a super hero, he has choosen to forgive SANDMAN. He haas choosen to get away his black costume. And, he has choosen to love Mary Jane.

Spiderman 3, as well as its 1st and 2nd sequel is such a romantic movie. A movie about love, friendship, and choices. I can’t stop staring my eyes from the screen :p

I watched this movie last weekend at Blitz Megaplex paris Van Java Bandung. I think Blitz have better sound system (and desk) than 21.

Good movie guys. There are also so many quotes. You know, quotes are the movie itself (Dian) <— hehehehe

Here is good quote from Mary Jane Watson:

We’ve all done terrible things to each other, but we have to forgive each other. Or everything we ever were will mean nothing…(Mary Jane Watson)

But do you know which quote that really shock me?

That was OUR kiss! (Mary Jane Watson)

Guys,

Last weekend i went to library@senayan. My friend said it was the british council library but now it is Perpustakaan Diknas. Actually i first saw about this library from O Cehannel. Since i like to read and books (no offense :p) so i decided to go there.
It is actually a room inside the Diknas building. Laid in the main building, you turn right from the main gate and you’ll get there.
I enter the room, i found that’s a cozy place, not so large library but supported with complete facility like references, fictions, journals, audio video, internet connection, and also BBC News (remember, its British :p). Besides the main gate of the library, there’s also a cafe (i forgot the name..is it Libido cafe heheheh) that you can enjoy food and drinks there while you read books.
I spent almost three hours there. I browse all the corners of the lib, i checked what kind of collections they have. Unfortunately guys, their collections is not what i’m looking for. Almost of the collections are British based or at least written from British point of view. I understand, that’s ex British Council. But some of them are interesting (i got the antology : Galileo Commandments). After all, i decided to read and find good stuffs in fictions and journals.
For you guys who likes to read books or just hang out in scientist environment (no offense :p) but cozy, you can find them here. It’s not traditional library that makes you bored. Anyway you can also meet many people (some of them bring their own laptop to get connection). i believe they are all smart, gaul, and most of them are young people. My friend like this place. She said its nice place to get her inspiration for her design hehehe so next time she will come here anymore.
As i know they also have some interesting events that you can join. For membership, they offer you special packages. So just come and enjoy it.

Yesterday at Semanggi i watched Drew barrymore’s newest movie: "Music and Lyrics". As usual, she always makes inspiring and touching movie hmm…

And you know, besides the sexy Haley Bennet, i really like the soundtrack. Really-really like it. The music, the melody, and the lyric of course.The lyric is really describes the fuckin me hehehehe ….   

I got the mp3 and the lyric as follows:

Way Back into Love

I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that i’ll be there for you in the end

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So pathetic ya hehehehehe …..

Many considerations now.

I need to prepare from small things. Don’t even try to put yourself into complicated intersection. Stay tune. I know it’s not come everyday but don’t miss that day.
I realize that it needs some energies. I don’t need to fall down into the deep, at least for the moment. Stay calm. You know, it should come from the deep of your heart. Do not make any little mistakes. He know what is the best for you but you can change, yap you really can change.
What you have to do is just keep it steady, dian ….

fuhhh……dah lama ga ngisi blog. ngisi blog ni karena ga ada kerjaan coz harpitnas gini kantor gw ga libur hikss …:(

Skrg, 27 Juli 2006…..

Semua masih ga pasti. Setelah gw melewati hari yang cukup penting selasa kmrn, paling ngga gw dah ada arahan. Tapi justru hari itu juga gue menemui dua hal yang ga pasti. Satu dan lainnya terkait. Tapi gw jalanin aja deh…

Yang jelas sekarang setiap saat itu sangat berharga bagi gw. Tgl 8 Agustus ga lama lagi. Kayaknya gw harus fokusin utama ke situ deh.

Hmmm…..

Besok…jam 9….Pak Agus…

Ayolah Pak…..

Di sisi lain….

Ini udah kesekiankalinya gw ke warnet cuma buat cek email.

Pak Panji…

Ayolah Pak…

di sisi lain lagi…

gw ga bisa banyak berharap

Pak Basuki…

Ayolah Pak…

di sisi lain lagi….

*****, Apa sih yg ada dalam hati kamu ?

Hmmm…..

Detik-demi detik dunia merayap…

Menertawakanku yang terus berharap…

Duh, godaan dateng lagi deh… Gw udah berkomitmen sih kalo gw ga akal tertarik sama apa2 dulu sebelum gw lulus. Tapi godaan yg ini menarik banget deh, bener. GImana nggak, ini bisa membawa perubahan bagi gw. Orang yang bakal jadi rekan gw nanti udah punya nama di indo.

Gw udah konsultasi sama bbrp orang termasuk orang tua. Ibu gw sih kurang setuju. Dia tetep pengen gw selesein dulu TA. Kata ibu gw, ini ujian buat gw. Yup, seharusnya gw emang harus udah bisa mutusin sendiri. Tapi khan ini menyangkut sponsor juga … hehehe

Hmm…

Gw blom kasih jawaban nih, gimana ya. Tapi kayaknya gw udah nemuin jawabannya deh. Yang jelas gw ga mau integritas gw jatuh lagi.

Butterfly Effect ….

One, two princes kneel before you
That’s what I said now
Princes, princes who adore you
Just go ahead now
One has diamonds in his pockets
That’s some bread, now
This one said he wants to buy you rockets
Ain’t in his head, now

This one he got a princely racket
That’s what I said now
Got some Big Seal upon his jacket
Ain’t in his head, now
You marry him, your father will condone you
How ’bout that now
You marry me, your father will disown you
He’ll eat his hat, now

Marry him, marry me
I’m the one that loved you, baby, can’t you see?
Ain’t got no future or family tree
But I know what a prince and lover ought to be
I know what a prince and lover ought be

Said if you want to call me baby
Just go ahead now
And if you like to tell me maybe
Just go ahead now
And if you want to buy me flowers
Just go ahead now
And if you like to talk for hours
Just go ahead now

Said one, two princes kneel before you
That’s what I said now
Princes, princes who adore you
Just go ahead now
One has diamonds in his pockets
That’s some bread, now
This one said he wants to buy you rockets
Ain’t in his head, now

Marry him, marry me
I’m the one that loved you, baby, can’t you see?
Ain’t got no future or family tree
But I know what a prince and lover ought to be
I know what a prince and lover ought be

Said if you want to call me baby
Just go ahead now
And if you like to tell me maybe
Just go ahead now
And if you want to buy me flowers
Just go ahead now
And if you like to talk for hours
Just go ahead now
And if you want to call me baby
Just go ahead now
And if you like to tell me maybe
Just go ahead now
And if you like to buy me flowers
Just go ahead now
And if you like to talk for hours
Just go ahead now
If you want to call me baby
Just go ahead now
And if you like to tell me maybe
Just go ahead now
If you want to buy me flowers
Just go ahead now
And if you like to talk for hours
Just go ahead now
Oh, baby…
Just go ahead now
Oh…
Just just go ahead now
Oh, your majesty!
Just go ahead now
Come on, forget the King who…marry me
Just go ahead now
Come on, come on, come on
Just go ahead now
Go ahead now
Just go ahead now

The truth is only one, but in you journey there are many ways to go through. It’s hard to set up yourself dare with any challenges although you used to be.

I should have learn much from anything i care about. I read much about probability. I saw many things related with them. Yesterday i talk with him about -actually bad things- but how miserable. It’s all about probabilities.

It seems that i should take a decision. Too much intersections. Too much innocence victims that they should not deserved that.

Should i go back to my parents ? I love them to anything in the world. I love them but i hate them though I may not be.

I’m scared….yeahh..i’m scared….

I left my friends….i left people i love.

How should i act. It really poisonous my mind. I know that i will have great solution in Jakarta but, i’m not sure. I should keep the devil away from me but, which one is he ? If i do, us that the way to be ?

I know but i dont want to ….

I lie to myself ….